Berger notes that emerging adults are likely to undergo spiritual struggles (Berger, 2011). At this point in my life, I'm definitely questioning what I believe faith-wise. I was raised Catholic. I went to Catholic school for thirteen years. I memorized prayers, made rosaries, and went to church with my parents every Sunday. Though I was aware of other religions, I really didn't know much about them. What if I'd been born in another part of the world? I'd probably belong to a different religion and worship a different kind of God.
I'm not sure if I consider myself Catholic anymore.
It's easy to believe something when everyone else around you says the same creed and goes through the same rituals. Growing up, I definitely found comfort in my faith (even at the beginning of my early college years). Now, I'm not quite sure of anything. A friend of mine (also age 22) is going through the same "crisis." The other night we had dinner with our mothers (also raised Catholic) about religion and faith. Even at their ages, they are questioning what they believe. In fact, it seems to me that the older you get the less you feel like you know. I really admire my mom for continuing to explore her faith. I hope I, too, can learn to cultivate my spirituality. I want to believe in something (or someone, rather) greater than myself.
I agree the older you get the less you feel like you know everything there is to know, especially if your world is stretched by going to college, immersion in another culture etc. You would probably like Rachel Held Evans blog http://rachelheldevans.com/blog/ especially the short video she just put up. She's very open about her faith journey. Personally I find Ravi Zacharias's broadcasts, helpful in processing what I believe http://www.rzim.org/let-my-people-think-broadcasts/. I'm with you in wanting to believe in someone greater than myself. It was definitely one of the things that kept me believing, even when I didn't know what I believed anymore.
ReplyDeleteThanks Rosanna, I'll definitely check these sources out!
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